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My goal for the day is to be positive. To say, think, and react in a positive manner. I seem to have fallen into the sloth of grumpiness. The only way out is to act as if . . . Act as if I’m in a good mood. Act as if I’m not tired. Act as if . . . Oh, lots of things. The point is this; I must be positive to feel positive. I’ve already meditated today, and that helped for awhile, but the pessimist in me is just kicking the crap out of the optomist. You know how in cartoons it’s a little angel on one shoulder and a little devil on the other? I don’t think it’s that simple. I think you have a muse that is the voice that helps you achieve your greatest good, your greatest life plan, but the other side isn’t a devil. It’s more an imp. That is the voice that tells you, can’t, that you’re a failure, that you’re ugly, fat, clumsy, fill in your negative. This is the voice that tells you, why even try you’ll just fail. This is the voice that eats your life and helps you waste all your talents in envy of others, in finding excuses not to persue your own work, your own dream. Turn to your muse, your message, your Diety given gifts, and use them. Muses aren’t just about writing and drawing, but about any endeavor that takes intellect and that spark of the divine, that spark of genius. That other voice, that negative voice, wants you to fail, wants your dreams to be wasted. It isn’t as simple as good vs. evil, that is too black and white. The negative voice, the anti-muse, doesn’t try to get most of us to do actual evil things, kill people, rape, pillage, and burn. The anti-muse just tells you that you are not good enough. It finds that small piece of doubt, or self-hatred, and fans it into a forest fire of self-defeat. Embrace your muse, do not listen to the anti-muse. Love yourself, or act as if you do. That’s what I’m going to do today. I started to type, try and do, but there is no try, there is only do. Quoting Yoda before lunch, a good sign?