Okay, everybody always asks

Jul 09, 2004

Okay, everybody always asks, how do you write everyday? How do you do it? I usually write about how it works, but today, I thought I’d write about how it doesn’t work. I have no idea why, but I just don’t want to work today. I’m tired, but it’s mainly that it’s the beginning of the book, and I know how much work lies ahead of me.
This is my seventeenth book, or eighteenth. With that many books under my belt, I still have moments when the idea of filling hundreds of pages with words is overwhelming. Because not just any words will do. It has to be good words. Words that say what needs saying, words that fly and float on the page, not just sit there. A daunting task that.
I’ve switched music to my musical for this book. In an earlier blog I said that I choose main music for days when the writing goes well, then musical for days that it’s not so good, and Christmas music for when the writing is going very badly. Read slow. What I’ve noticed on the days when the words drag themselves out like a tired prisoner crawling through mud, is that the next day when I reread it, it reads fine. My head may go ugly or dissatisfied, but the writing is fine. Good even, there are days when I just can’t see it.
The musical, by the by, is BEAUTY AND THE BEAST, yes, Disney, original Broadway cast album. Why is it that people think because I write what I write that I can’t like Disney stuff? Silly people. My husband and I actually like Disney movies, products and such. In fact I am currently wearing one of the souvenir shirts I got on our last trip to Disney World. I am secure enough in myself to wear a Dumbo tank top. How many other Goths can say that?
Okay, I just turned to Jonathon and asked, “Is that true, do I qualify as a Goth?”
“Not really,” he said, “but it’s closer than anything else.”
True, I thought.
Okay, let’s coin a new term. I’m a DisneyGoth. Which means there are days on end when I wear black, and I love my t-shirts with the scary sayings on them. Then I’ll run into a spat of days where I need something a little brighter. I find that my t-shirt that has the Shakespeare quote for Vampire Theatre makes me happy to wear, and so does my Kaa shirt with it’s slogan of ‘Trust in me’. Why should I limit myself to just part of my personality? Why should anyone?
Gotta go make actual pages. Bye for now.