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May 07, 2008

I’m anxious; why? I think it has something to do with the fact that Pippin is laying at my feet. Well, he’s actually on one foot. He hates storms and we’ve got another round of pouring rain, distant thunder, and even a little lightning. Pip hates it all.
I’m actually beginning to think that I’m picking up on his anxiety. I know, I know, weird, but I’m still beginning to think it’s true. I was fine until the puppy decided to be a canine limpet and attache himself to me. But I can’t in good conscience make him move, because I know that the close proximity makes him feel better.
Earlier today I finely got SWALLOWING DARKNESS back out. It was time. I was all prepared to decide how much to cut. I’d estimated loosing at least forty pages. But strangely, when I reread things, I didn’t need to loose anything. I’m not wrong on where the book needs to go and what needs to happen here. I was wrong about what the outcome will be of the events for the next few books, but I’m not wrong about this fight. We need it, and we need it here.
It’s time for Merry and her guys to show everyone that, they might, just might, be picking more of a fight than they bargained for.
I’m supposed to be working on Anita right now, but my head really isn’t into it. I think I may have a second short piece moving liquid in my head. The idea was that the second writing session of the day was about fun, and working on whatever I wanted to work on, not about deadlines. But I keep falling back into the habit of making it all about work, and not about play.
What do I want to play today? Is it time to actually just open up a blank file and see what my muse is trying to tell me? If I do, then it will be the first time in over ten years, maybe longer, that I’ve given myself that kind of freedom. Hmm, wonder what it will feel like? Best to find out. Maybe it will be another short story, or another novel-lite, or some idea that’s been bubbling around in my imagination, that’s finally ready to talk to me.
I’ll leave Anita, Edward, Olaf, and Bernardo, on the sidewalk in the summer heat. We can question people tomorrow, after I start the big fight at the end of DARKNESS. Fun day tomorrow, but right now, I’m going to go play.