Today is the Emotional Day
This morning I woke up anxious and unsettled and couldn’t figure out why, then I realized, “Oh, this is the emotional day after I finish a book.” I was so mentally and creatively done when I finished the last book recently that I actually had two days of energy and DOING things before the adrenaline drop happened. Usually it’s instantaneous, or within a few hours. So this cycle of predictable post-book-isms has been a little off schedule, but when each day, or mood hits, I’ll ask my husband, Jonathon, or our domestic partners is this normal? Do I always do this after I finish a book? They will all nod and assure me this is the pattern. Jonathon and I have been together for seventeen years and will soon count our sixteenth wedding anniversary, so he knows the drill. Our domestic partners, Genevieve and Spike, have only seen me through three books, but even they know the pattern now. Apparently I am that predictable to everyone else, but to me it remains more mysterious.
I couldn’t think why I was lying in a nice warm bed, cuddled with my sweetie and anxious, until I realized what part of my pattern was happening. Today I will be anxious, sometimes overly emotional, so I know to ride through the anxiety and not let the emotional issues get out of hand. This will pass, I just need to hunker down, hold tight, and allow it to happen. Fighting it, or beating myself up because I’m allowing myself to get all weepy, or angry, or scared, or whatever emotion is happening is not helpful. It just makes me feel worse, so today I need to be gentle with myself and with those around me, and just keep moving. Its a good day to do exercise I enjoy, a very good day for stretching and gentle yoga, or playing with the dogs and cat, or just sitting quietly with them.
I wrote the above a few days ago, and today I’m reminded that if I don’t go straight back into writing something new that the emotional roller coaster isn’t just one day. It continues sporadically over several days. No wonder I’m a workaholic, this feels awful, but I’m still not ready to sit down and write. I will be brave and let my writing process have its way with me, until I am sure what comes next.
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Just take it one day at a time. When I get anxious, I think about how I can only control so much and every day I get through is a victory. I know your husband and domestic partners will help you through and be understanding. All your fans love you and wish you well! You deserve a nice, long break 🙂
I can understand completely! I am bi-polar and have been living with it for 30 years. My meds help, but I have learned that the emotions will roll over you in their own timeframe and to just roll with them.
Give yourself some time to enjoy life lady…persevere
Give yourself some time to enjoy life lady…persevere
Take your time and re-set. Think of it as emotional editing !! What will come , will come.
Heart Hugs.
How wonderful that you realized what was happening. I always ask myself and the Universe what I need to learn when I experience anxiety. I beleive everything I exoerience serves a purpose and my challenge is to be open to learning what it is.
I have recently discovered that walking in nature with trees and wildlife restores my balance and lifts me up.
Cheers and thank you for all the wonderful stories and characters you fill them with.
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SPA DAY!!!!!!!!!!
I think it’s wonderful that you have so many people, that love you and know you so well, who are there to support you (and make sure we get these awesome novels).
I wish everyone could be that fortunate.
Thanks for your wonderful novels, and thanks to your family for supporting you through the process.
It reminds me a lot of giving birth. What you are describing are very similar to how I have felt after giving birth to my children, and I think that writing a book might be a little the same.
I have always felt like you give a lot of yourself in your books, and I think it’s one of the reasons why I like them so much.
Reading your books have gotten me through a lot of hard times. So I am grateful for the sacrifices you make by wring them. So thank you from the bottom of my heart.
You know that there is so much more to tell! I want to know about how her and Edward met, about his training her. If he is so cold and closed, how they built what they have. Will it go further? I love your books. I’m currently re-reading them all.